dawn

My first few months in Yorkshire seem to have been spent driving through darkness.  I'm commuting three hours a day, so not surprising really. You can't say it's like tunnel, the landscape changes, flat, hills, lights in the distance, the shadowy outlines of villages, and life behind curtains.  I drive along as if somebody is laying down track just outside the range of my headlights. Accelerating, breaking, turning. The road dictates.

The rest of life feels like this too. Travelling along not really knowing what will come next, and not arriving just yet.  Having most of my things in storage adds to this continuing feeling of shifting.  I've stopped missing most of the accoutrements of my life, although being remote from ones personal records can be challenging.  All those objects just seem like an encumbrance.  That said, I've had to replace a few things out of necessity, and check other such purchases on a few occasions, reminding myself I can manage without.  Perhaps I shouldn't be so blasé about all those objects, there must are quite a few functional items in those boxes that I still want in my life.

Now that solstice has passed the days are getting a bit brighter.  Gradually we are inching the light back. This is how this particular new year seems to me, a dawning on a new life, a new phase, a new unknown spring.